DEATH is just the BEGINNING....
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Death is just the beginning... Someone special told me this today....And I want to believe in this so desperately... I have no choice i have to believe this...

Today i felt pain, pain of loosing someone dear, someone young and so worthy of living... And if i dont believe that his death is only the beginning for him, i'll feel even more miserable than i am feeling now... Though i doubt i can go even further cuz i am at the edge...
So young........ So caring about his friends and everyone... So funny and smart...A REAL Gyumreci...
I cant help but remember every little thing in detail about what he did how he did why he did and it hurts me even more.... This constant realization hurts me more and these salty tears just can't sooth that pain can they...? Not at all...
They came down and dry only to leave a feeling of more emptiness and more pain......of loss..
Yeah, someone special..you were right..." after all, life is just a matter of time",,... But his time came too early...Who had the right to take him???
Death is so ridiculous...disgusting..Death doesnt really care who is it he's taking... No you weren't taken by Death, my friend, you were taken by an Angel... Though that certain Angel had NO right to take you from the people that cherished and loved u anyway....
Life's only Beutiful.....because it's so fleeting, so translucent... so true Dei..

I hope you are happy wherever you are now ARTASHES JAN...
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obsession...
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.. at times when i start to feel empty, when darkness overflows me and makes me shiver and quiver from its sinister breath... it's like a ray in the darkness, like a rope of hope that i clutch in my hands so hard that it hurts... well, this is from another series...
Anyway, recently the cells of my beautiful mind have found another addiction to keep me entertained, and strangely enough it's anime...))) Who would've ever thought!
         Never thought it would be so real to me, so vivid and absorbing... It came like a wave of forbidden desires,/hmm/  a way of self-expression, self-improvement, and of course entertainment.... Thanx to Masashi Kishimoto :**** million hugs to a man of such fantasies, and billion bows! 
And here i find myself absorbed in all kind of anime related things - manga, fan fiction and fanart! A soothing relaxation to my mind and soul, when I watch, when i read, when i draw... it's such a "outta-universe-feeling"... :) 
P.S. Aishiteimasu Itachi,  aishiteimasu Deidara!!! 
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